Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Luis Holt
Luis Holt

An architect and urban planner with over 15 years of experience in sustainable design projects across Europe.